Jan. 22nd, 2016 11:51 am
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I made it through another week of this semester, so it's time that I focus on the rest of my life for a while. Perhaps I can let myself do a bit of cathartic writing before I get to anything else. Even though this week was short on account of MLK day, it felt long and hectic. Sunday was my birthday, but I just rolled with it this time. I decided that there will be plenty of time in the rest of the year to turn to reflection about the state of my life. I allowed myself to feel happy about the event, but I did not celebrate much on that day. Instead, I took care of some homework and watched Galavant. Richard continues to be my favorite character in that series. I did get some sweet birthday wishes, though. It's good to be reminded that I am loved.

Of course, Monday was a holiday, so I took the time to actually celebrate my birthday a bit. We tried a new Mexican restaurant that I didn't end up liking very much. The rest of my time was spent trying to figure out synthetic a priori and reading. It's unfortunate that my creative writing class had to be on Monday because that is not the class I wanted to miss.

Tuesday I went to see If/Then with Idina Menzel. As a result, I found out what happens when you're late to a musical. We had to wait outside for ten minutes before they would let us in, but there was a screen outside to allow us to know what was going on. However, the sound on the screen was a bit delayed, and we could hear the actual sound coming from the theater at the same time. This created an echo that made it hard to understand what was going on. Eventually, someone turned down the sound on the screen to fix the problem, and we were let in before too long. It was a good show although I did find it a bit confusing like some of the reviewers had said. It was my chance to hear Idina sing live again, so it was worth it. I didn't realize that Anthony Rapp was in it too, and I was reminded how much I like his voice. Some songs were more memorable than others and the lyrics seemed clever at times, but I would like to listen to the cast recording to make a final judgment. Overall, the story was relatable because I am still young, and I have a lot of life-changing decisions ahead of me as well. I could relate to Elizabeth's struggle to find out what was the right decision.

Speaking of decisions, I am thinking of studying abroad in Spain or some other Spanish-speaking country. Spanish is not my major, but it would be a gift to become fluent in it after I've been forced to take three semesters of it and have at least one more semester to look forward to. I'm not even sure that I'd qualify for the scholarship, but I'm going to go to a presentation about it next Friday. It seems like something that is seriously worth considering even though I have a bunch of other things that I need to do in my life. Maybe something good could come of it. It could be just the thing to give me a fresh start.

I don't really have much to say about the last two days. It was just... stressful on account of personal things, but I can put that behind me now. I also had a dream about the Tenth Doctor and Martha, so I think that's incentive to start watching the older episodes of Doctor Who again.

This week

Jan. 15th, 2016 03:28 pm
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All right, my first week of the semester is over! It seems that my last semester at this college will be somewhat low-key although I really must put a lot of effort into my intermediate Spanish class if I want to improve. I have mixed feelings about the semester already. Since this is my last semester, I am already starting to miss the college that has become my home over the last five years. It was the college that I never wanted to attend at first and that I often wished I could have been done with faster as I took my time to ease myself into the demands of college life, but I hate to say goodbye now. I will miss everyone and everything that has become familiar to me, especially favorite guy. I hope that I will be able to see him a lot before the semester is over and that I will get the chance to see him even after that because the idea of possibly never seeing him again brings tears to my eyes.

I didn't really feel like doing anything this morning, so all I did was do some Spanish lessons and goof off on the Internet. There were plenty of things I should have been doing, though. I still want to continue with [community profile] snowflake_challenge, but I will probably get to that later today.

It sucks that Alan Rickman had to die this week. :( Unlike with David Bowie's passing, I was familiar with Rickman's work. I am an unabashed Snape fangirl, and Alan Rickman is at least 50% of why I started loving the character in the first place. He will always be remembered for the way he bewitched our minds and ensnared our senses. From that first Potions' class onward, I became a Snape fan instantly.

They're doing a HP reread over at I may look into participating even though I am already planning to do a reread of The Tale of the Body Thief at [community profile] vc_media. Like the first reread post says, I'm sure Rickman's death will affect the way I read that book now that he and Snape are gone. If I do participate, it will be my first reading of the book since I read it when it first came out. My, how time flies.
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I was technically finished with my finals yesterday, but I had to go back to school today to take care of some business for spring 2016, so it didn't feel like I was done with the semester. My brain is still winding down from the stress of the semester. Earlier, it was really bugging me a lot with this nagging feeling that I had forgotten something, but that has quieted down. The hardest part of vacation time is losing that sense of purpose that keeps me going in even the darkest of times. Still, it is just great to be writing for once and not pressured about a bunch of assignments to do. I am fairly sure about my Spanish grade, but philosophy is still a big question mark in my mind. However, I did manage to visit favorite guy and give him his present, so that worked out fine. I'm hoping that everything else works out for the best. *crosses fingers*

Now that the semester is over, I can get back to the very important business of actually living, otherwise known as spending way too much of my time on the computer. :D Seriously though, I do plan on going out more over my break because the only fun thing I did during the semester was go to visit my friend in Berkley over Thanksgiving. I will probably make my way out to see the new Star Wars movie. I wasn't fortunate enough to grow up watching the series, but the hype has certainly enticed me. I watched the original trilogy and the first two prequels for the first time last summer when I finally caved into peer pressure after waiting far too long to watch them. By the time I had finally watched the movies, I was already familiar with Joseph Campbell's wonderful The Power of Myth and the hero's journey stuff. I should probably get around to watching Revenge of the Sith while I'm at it because I have heard its the only good prequel. Besides, I'm still working on my "getting into science fiction" project," so it's about time to kick that back into full swing.

Speaking of which, I hope to use this time to catch up on my shows and reading. I'll probably give tumblr some more attention, too. Basically, media binging. There's not a lot of time to extend my yearly reading, but I do hope to finish up the books that have been marked as "currently reading" for at least months now without much progress. Maybe I can fit some sci-fi in there somewhere. To be honest, I want to drop everything and just read more of the Dresden Files, but I should finish up the year with some more diversity. I read the first six books this year, so there will be plenty of time to finish up the series next year if I so choose. I love Thomas, and Harry, of course. I wish I had started reading this series a long time ago when Harry Potter ended because it fills that hole in my heart nicely. I'm not sure I would put my enjoyment and love on the same level as my love for Harry Potter as it was still coming out, but the Dresden Files is still very addictive. I love the lush world it gives me to play around in and explore.
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Not only did I sleep in today, I took a nap this afternoon. -_-; I am soooo ready for the semester to be over. All I need to do is finish two essays and study, and it will be. I wrote about ~250 words already, so I will count that as an accomplishment. Once school's done, I can read whatever I wish to my heart's content.. at least until August when I need to go back for more punishment again. I'm looking forward to being the mistress of my own time again.
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Daylights Savings Time has effectively kicked my butt, and the heat has melted away what little strength I had left. This week was probably the worst that I have had this year, but don't quote me on that. In spite of not finishing the majority of the book, I did better on my quiz for Sorrows of Young Werther than I have done on most of the quizzes where I have actually read the entire book. Way to reward my laziness, God/the universe. Everything else this week was various levels of frenzy and confusion. I had to skip Spanish yesterday because I was too stressed and tired at the time, so I hope that won't cause any problems in the long-run. Tonight, I couldn't sleep and felt the need to cry a little bit. Altogether, my mental health has been on shaky ground. If I do in fact have social anxiety disorder, it has been acting up this week. It seems to get worse when I am tired and stressed. Plus, I have been out and about much more than usual this week. That's not a great combination.

So, of course, I have to wake up at a reasonable hour this morning for a family thing. :( I would much rather spend the day locked away in my bedroom. At any rate, I am very relieved that spring break is next week. I need it to relax and catch up on my studies.


Jan. 6th, 2015 05:40 pm
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Once again, I find myself sitting here and trying to write an entry at sundown. My winter vacation is over next week. Christmas and New Year's Day have passed with some destruction in their wake. I keep thinking that it will be the end of the world when the new semester begins, but it probably won't be that big of a deal. There are some annoying little matters to attend to, but they shouldn't be much. Nothing to interfere with my obsessive Internet surfing and general geekdom. I only have three classes for four days a week. It shouldn't be too intrusive. Hopefully, I should be able to keep everything under control.

Right now, I'm journeying back to 2009 and listening to The Fame by Lady Gaga. I don't think I've ever listened to this album all the way through. Oh well, I have Spotify Premium now. I might as well get my money's worth.

I've barely started on season three of Doctor Who. I like Martha so far, but I don't think she will beat Rose in my eyes. The first episode "Smith and Jones") was meh to me. Kind of run-of-the-mill. However, if I recall correctly, the second season began with an episode that was set in a hospital. It's interesting to see a hint of a pattern there. I wonder if any other patterns will continue? Anyway, I loved the second episode because it was Shakespeare. I haven't read any reviews of this episode, so I don't know if it's well-liked or not. The suggestion that Martha was Shakespeare's "Dark Lady" was cute, and I loved all the references to how women live in the future as compared to Elizabethan times. I also wonder if there is any evidence that Shakespeare did spend any time in Bedlam? Probably not, but it's interesting to think of it and his lost son. Loved the constant quoting of Shakespeare and the Doctor saying that he could use those lines. ;) The shout-outs to J. K. Rowling were great, too. I don't know how historically accurate this episode was, but I enjoyed it and its gleeful Britishness all the same.

It's dark now. Sunset was at 4:58. The music's stopped. I say it's timme to leave you now.
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The sun is setting behind me, and I am not ready for Christmas at all...

I had finals last week. I'm still kinda worn out from those. Even though I am on vacation now, I don't think that I have gotten into the swing of things yet. I've hardly done anything so far, and there's so much that I want to do in my time off. One thing that I did do is finish Prince Lestat by Anne Rice. It was surprisingly good; I have no problem saying that I enjoyed it. ;) The new charactrs were interesting for the most part. I love Victor/Rose. Honestly, I'm looking forward to the new places that she will take the Vampire Chronicles in this new decade.

Another thing that I have done is join Reddit. I'm not so sure how I feel about it so far, but I enjoy the distraction.

I've done a bunch of little odds and ends around the Internet, but none of the rest seem worth mentioning right now. I want to do more writing, that's for sure.

I'm not sure how happy I am with this entry (everything that I do must be aesthetically pleasing!), but I have enjoyed the process of writing it in the waning light.
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The title is a reference to a T. S. Elliot poem. I couldn't help thinking of it on a night like this... all we need now is a belted rendition of Memory from Cats.

So, I'm awake! I don't know why. I went to bed early enough, but I woke up around 1:51. I guess you could blame it on the wind or depression. Now that I think of it, it could easily be both. This is a *very* blustery night. It's a little unsettling.

I should make sure to go back to sleep and get enough rest because I have some work ahead of me. Seriously, when do I have no work these days? Anyway, I really need to finish the Shakespeare paper about Much Ado About Nothing. I also need to redo the first Shakespeare essay a bit. And read the first act of Taming of the Shrew. And answer the homework questions for Taming of the Shrew. And prepare for both English midterms. And do the next psychology study guide. And catch up on reading the music textbook... but that's it.


Aside from the constant exhaustion, I have found time to be inspired in my fall semester. Although I am feeling worn out, I must say that I made some good choices in courses this time around. In psychology, I am reading this really amazing collection of lectures by C. G. Jung. It's so inspiring! *_* I knew I would be interested in Jung's writings. I have heard hints of his ideas over the years, but I'm happy to tackle the real thing now.

Music is inspiring because the prof. is crazy and a nerd. I mean, he put on an episode of My Little Pony: Friendship if Magic for us to watch during the break. And I learned something! Plus, he collects Pokémon cards. He likes anime. He told us to watch Gurren Lagen (sp?) and Aria. To top it off, he's a pretty terrific music professor.

Of course, the English classes are inspiring, too... Oddly enough, it's not the Shakespeare one that appeals to me the most. I think it's the focus on comedies that we've had so far. I mean, they're fun, but where Halmet? I guess that's what YouTube is for...

The readings in the critical thinking class are superb. I loved the one one non-fiction book that we have read so far. I think, overall, my favorite readings from the textbook were Sartre and Swift's "A Modest Proposal." That last one was flippin' awesome. *sighs* The Sartre reading makes me want to take contemporary philosophy and dive into existentialism. Ah... there's so much to do in life!

I really should sleep now. I want to write more about Night Vale, but it'll have to wait!
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I feel like I'm moving forward. I didn't accomplish as much work as I want to do yesterday, but I did make progress! I may have to reread MLK's letter, but that's not too bad at all... I read act 4 of Much Ado About Nothing, and I'm taking a break before I tackle the last act and answer homework questions. I still need to do the fallacies assignment, but I finally have the list. The rest is psychology and music, but that's not due tomorrow. The thing that may give me the most trouble is that essay draft that's due on Wednesday. I will probably make it less ambitious than the first. I think I'll be better off if I do that.

Oh hey, really gorgeous Rachmaninoff piece just played on the radio. *_* I need to find out what it was, but I always love his stuff... *checks* Elegy in E-flat minor Op. 3 No. 1... what a catchy title...

I think I may have decided on a minor/second major in the last few hours. It's Sociology. I've given this field of study a lot of thought before, and my one Sociology class was one of the most inspiring moments in school. *sighs* It would be a lovely compliment for an English major. What can I say? We'll see.

I think that brings us to the end of this afternoon diversion. I need to read/eat/sleep/write now.
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Well, I'm not sure what happened... I had a entry all started, and I thought the draft was saved, but... alas, no. No matter. Let's start afresh!

My fourth week of the new semester is almost complete. All I have left is music appreciation tomorrow moring. :D The first two weeks were trials, I admit, but things feel a bit more under control now. I still have three essays due next week, but hey, that comes with the territory!

As I may have mentioned earlier, I failed the applied music audition for the second time in a row. I'm not totally happy about it, but I can recognize that it was probably for the best. There was a time when I really thought opera could be my future. Now, I don't know, and I'm 200% fine with that. It's a possibility. However, I'm no longer married to the idea. I think pursuing an English major is--and always has been--my truer calling. In truth, English probably suits me better. I'm open-minded, though.

Anyway, in spite of all this, I went through with my recital. This event just happened to coincide with my first week of school. Not only was I exhausted by the time Saturday arrived, I alreaddy had an essay due for my honors English class. Once the recital was over, I kind of lost it a little bit...

I'm going to try to learn from that experience. At the time, I felt like history was repearting itself and that I had made no real progress since the beginning of last semester. During my spring semester, I had more than my fair share of freakouts and what might possibly be called "mini-existential crises." I had to turn in my Robinson Crusoe final paper late, and thanks to the grace of my professor, it didn't affect my grade. I did not want to make my first impression on the new professor by making another misstep like that.

It all turned out fine. More than fine. 93% fine.

As for my impressions about the new classes and professors...

My English professor for the critical thinking class is one of the most positive people I have met. The only other professor who I can think of to rival her is Dr. H. I have had my share of encouraging professors, but this one--Dr. P--is bound to be a great source of inspiration for a fledging English major like myself. ^^; I see more growth in my future.

My Shakespeare professor is a cool person and bonafide nerd. Not only does she has the passion for the bard, but she will make nerdy references to make things more understandable. And she just slipped up and said Puck with an "f" instead of a "p." Now, I'm not the type to be all, "ZOMG, a professor swore! LOL," but it was amusing. ^^; So far, I have completed A Midsummer Night's Dream and discovered that my favorite character is Puck. I have never felt intimidated by Shakespeare, but I still feel a lot more confident about reading his other works now. Up until now, I had only read Romeo and Juliet, and I'm not a huge fan of that play. As for plays I've seen... Hamlet, Othello, Macbeth, Julius Caesar, and As You Like It. I'm ready to confront any of those in print whenever I can find the time!

I need to pause for a second and remind myself how much I need to write on a regular basis. Seriously, it's like my fingers have stocked up on caffeine...

Psychology feels like it might give honors English for the most challening class. That said, I've wanted to take a psychology class for years now. I highly doubt that it will be my last. I think what is most challenging is the amount of work. We have something to do every week. Paired with the demands of my other classes, it might be a source of stress. Still, I'm trying hard not to get stressed about psychology. It sounds counter-intuitive. Plus, the psychology professor is cool and funny. I senswe he's an introvert and possibly a fellow INFP. The earlier chapters about the biological perspectyive, sensation, and perception were hard, but we'll be past then soon enough. When it comes to psychology, I think my deepest interest lies in personality and socail psychology.

I'm geting a bit tired and distracted, so I'll make my discussion of music appreciation a little brief... The guy's cool. First Libertarian I've ever met... *shrugs* If anyone gets me into 20th century art music, it's him. He's already got me interested in some new pop. His class is like 50% of my reason for going to see Einstein on the Beach next month. Um... yay for Phillip Glass?

As always... I could say more, but my fingers are rusty! Plus, I have those three essays. I also have Jung to read, two other essay sto read for English class, another psychology chapter to read, and a psychology study guide to fill out. Oh, and some music hapters to catach up on... and that's just the homework on my to-do list! *flails* Don't panic?

Well... to sum it all up, Miley's nwe song is... not... terrible. Huh.
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well, damn... it's after 2 a.m., and I'm full of energy. Perfect timing, huh? Anyway, I thought I'd make my first post in the meantime. This isn't a real introductory post though. It's just what's going through my mind right now...

I have to get up tomorrow too enroll in my fall classes. *blinks* I should be up at 10 this morning. That is, if my registration date gets updated… Otherwise, I may have to go down there. I want to take that critical thinking requirement class, a Shakespeare class, a music appreciation class, and an introductory psychology class. Hope that all works out.

I've also been really getting into Welcome to Night Vale. I'm on episode 10 so far. And I've read two FICs! ♥ In fact, that's why I just signed up for AO3. I hope my invite comes soon... It looks a lot friendlier than Fanfiction.Net.

I've also been reading J. K. Rowling's new book. In fact, I need to finish it. More on that later.

I will post a proper introduction soon. Now, sleep!


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