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Today was better than yesterday, but I'm still staying up too late and sleeping in too late. I woke up around 10 this morning, and I was feeling pretty good until the afternoon. I did what I wasn't supposed to do, which is take a nap around 3 o'clock. I woke up around 10 or 15 minutes before 5. Then, I started to have some stomach pain for no discernible reason.

I decided to go ahead with my daily writing goals, but I'm doing something controversial in counting what I write in my journal entries toward my goals. Sure, it's not fanfic, original fic, or poetry, but journaling is often a recommended tool for writers. It's a way to keep the ball rolling, and I hope to write more fiction/poetry as time goes on. Besides, I will be taking a creative non-fiction class this semester, so this can be practice for that. I feel that just putting any kind of words on the screen is beneficial, and I believe that keeping a journal has helped me find my voice over the years. Fiction, poetry, non-fiction, blogging: it's all one to me.

I finished my [community profile] stageoffools letter tonight. It still needs tweaking in order to be easy to read, but it's essentially done. This was accompanied by watching the 2016 Russell T. Davies version of A Midsummer Night's Dream because I wanted to refresh myself on the details. That was probably not the best idea as this version had some obvious changes. The most obvious was that Spoilers ) This was more of a reinterpretation, but I enjoyed the changes and they made me look at the play in a slightly different way.

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Aug. 7th, 2017 10:06 pm
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I've been really tired today, and I haven't really done anything all day. I started out by organizing and messing around with my Spotify playlists. There are a lot of good albums that I never listen to, so I have started dumping the albums that I remember liking into playlists separated by decades. Depending on how many albums I can recall, these playlists could end up being massive. This is still better than my old organizational system, which is basically nonexistent. I will probably try to make some genre playlists, but that will have to wait. I'm not sure if I should put Broadway cast recordings in the individual decade playlists or put them into one giant, all-consuming Broadway playlist. I'm leaning toward the latter because of the amount of tracks on albums and the fact that revivals can feature music from decades earlier than when they were recorded.

Organizing music on Spotify is a big thing for me because I own very little music myself. When I was growing up, I bought almost no music aside from anime CDs. I listened to Japanese music almost exclusively until I was about 15, except for when I was listening to the radio in the car. By the time that I started listening to English music more often, I had already discovered the joys of music piracy and downloading. I built up and lost my mp3 collection several times over because I never backed anything up. Eventually, I stopped downloading mp3s and switched to streaming via... Last.fm in 2006, I think? Now that I think of it, I think I started listening to Yahoo's Launchcast personalized radio first... does anyone remember that? I always thought I would re-download my old collection from iTunes, but based on the volume of music that I had listened to over the years as well as my changing tastes, I never did. So, basically, I'm trying to get together all the new and old music that I've ever loved and can still enjoy in one place.

Anyway, I got really tired after that. I blame it on waking up several times during the night and having a dream about turning into an evil witch with my best friend from elementary school. I don't know where exactly that came from, but it felt pretty vivid at the time. I have taken to listening to audio books and podcasts while I'm trying to fall asleep, and I frequently fall asleep with them still playing. I was listening to the Welcome to Night Vale novel last night, so maybe that is to blame.

The only other thing that I can blame for being exhausted today is that I have been active more often than usual in the past two weeks. It all started with Portland. The week before last, I was in Portland for a few days. That involved a lot of walking and getting lost on public transportation. I walked 4+ miles each day, and I was able to eat at a cool British pub called The Raven and the Rose, so I was pretty happy.

On Thursday of last week, I went to Catalina for my grandma's birthday because they offer free boat trips to the island for people celebrating their birthdays as well as one guest. It felt like I spent most of my time riding around on the back of a golf cart and listening to music, but I did end up walking 3.3 miles. I also bought a unicorn necklace because I am clearly an eleven year old girl on the inside. XD; Altogether, it was a good day, and I spent the ride home out on deck to experience the wind and sea spray while staring at the sea and darkening sky. It has been so long since I've been out to sea like that, so I regret nothing.

On Friday, I stayed home for most of the day, but I went to Fullerton in the evening to get coffee at the Night Owl. Then, I found out that my aunt was making tacos, so we went over there for dinner.

On Saturday, I went back to Fullerton to try a pizza place called Fuoco. It was good but way more authentic than I am used to. Then, I went to the Tranquil Tea Lounge where I ordered a white tea and mochi ice cream. It was the first time I had mochi ice cream before, and I loved it. Overall, I walked 1.5 miles that day.

On Sunday, I went to Torrance with my family to visit an old neighbor of theirs. I used it as an excuse to stop by Mitsuwa for the first time. I did not realize that that place was so big! I wish I had more time to spend there, but I did get some snacks as well as a discounted tea set. I want to visit the one in Costa Mesa since it is about the same distance as the one in Torrance. Overall, I walked 1.3 miles that day.

So, it's probably not the walking that has made me tired because I've actually felt better on days that I've walked more. I'm guessing that it is the social interaction and maybe just being out. I think that this is the same thing that makes me feel so exhausted during the semester because I can be out for only a few hours and feel drained. That is why it is so hard to balance my classes with anything else. I don't interact with people a lot, but just being there can make me feel self-conscious and nervous... it is not fun. It is worst at the beginning of the semester, especially if I don't know the professor. Usually, it gets better after a month or so, but I still carry a lot of stress and tension with me which can be very draining.

Last but not least, I did not start my new writing goals because I have felt tired and distracted. I decided that I should get started on a day when I actually feel good, but maybe that's just an excuse. It's so hard to start things and find motivation.
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I've decided to try to write 1000 words every day until this time next month. That way I can see how easy/difficult it is to accomplish, so I can adjust my plans for the rest of the year. I can experience what it's like to strive for my goals during vacation and the first week of the semester. I really want my summer writing to end with a bang, and I've been doing way more of it than usual for the last few days. Maybe this is too much to start, but I want to push myself and accomplish things before the summer ends. I don't know if I'm the kind of person who needs to write every day or who should write every day, but this is one way to find out.

I just don't know how to deal with distractions/interruptions, but if I aim to knock out 1000 words in the morning, I can save the rest of the day for those things. I'm not sure if I should start after tomorrow as I will be in Catalina with my family for most of the day, but I could try to write on my phone. *shrugs* Whatever it takes to finish my projects and write more words.
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I have gone to bed after 1 am consistently for the last few days, which does not bode well for when I will have to be awake and functioning before 10 AM next month. -_-; I'm still wondering how July is almost over and where the time has gone. Time has always been my enemy, but maybe we will be able to reconcile someday.

Last weekend, I house-sat for my aunt and uncle, which meant AC for a few days! *cheers* Naturally, it started to cool down outside just when I finally got access to the air conditioning. I'm home now, but I was able to enjoy it for a few days at least. It's so much easier to accomplish things when you're not hot and tired all the time.

So, after my previous post, I actually did go to the fair on Saturday and had a lovely time.Read more... )

I also signed up for the [community profile] hp_creatures fest, so hopefully I can get started on that. I will be in Oregon Thursday through Saturday for unpleasant personal reasons, but I'd like to get started before then. I have until October, but it is better that I use my time wisely, especially before school starts and consumes me. I need all the help that I can get when it comes to actually sitting down and writing anything that's over ~500 words. At least it's a pairing that I feel relatively comfortable with.

I'm supposed to go to a HP trivia night tonight at 7:30; my life is so interesting now. XD;

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Jun. 25th, 2017 07:17 pm
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Ugh, summer is upon us, and it is woefully hot. Since I lack air conditioning at home, I almost wish that I was taking summer classes in order to escape the heat. I needed a break, though. Last semester wasn't necessarily difficult, but it was draining. This was most likely caused by my lack of personal writing over the last few months, which left me without a true creative outlet. Academic writing can be fun, but it's not necessarily the best form of expression even if I do manage to express myself through my interests and choice of topics at times.

So, I have stalled out o my writing and decided to withdraw from [community profile] getyourwordsout because I was so far behind. I could have continued plodding along, but the whole thing was stressing me out. Basically, I was behind from the start. I'm not great at dealing with failure and overcoming my shortcomings, so I just pushed it to the back of my mind. I will probably try again next year.

I finally saw Wonder Woman last week with my family, and I heartily enjoyed it. I did not grow up with Wonder Woman or comics, but I enjoy superhero movies in general. I went to support the female director and the idea of a female-led superhero flick without any personal investment in the character. In spite of that, this was the least bored I've been at the movies in a long while. This makes sense because it has a lot of the narrative tropes that I enjoy. Very mild spoilers ) Basically, I want to be her. If I read comic books, I'd probably be doing that right now.

I also rewatched the Fantastic Beasts movie, and I felt like I liked it a lot more this time. I always enjoyed the world-building and characters, but the story felt lacking. While I still think it could have been better, I felt way more invested in the story this time around. I also still think Newt is a refreshing lead, and I am always happy to see more Hufflepuff characters in the limelight.

I wasn't interested in the fandom back when I first watched it, but I am curious now. I havent gone looking for fics, but I would love some recs. I don't know who is still paying attention to this half-dead journal, but fic recs for Fantastic Beasts would be much appreciated if you have any.
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My motivation has taken a nosedive and my sleep schedule has been all messed up ever since I finished finals' week. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy to be out from under the demands of the semester, but it feels like a great driving force has been removed from my life. There's a million things that I either could do or should do, but I don't have any structure to it. I did graduate last week, so at least that's one thing I've done. I have that on Intern Maureen, and I didn't even have to lead any army or anything!

Speaking of which, I am very happy with the way that Night Vale is going. I think there might have been a dip in quality around the time the book was coming out, but events are working their way into something exciting. The format of the last episode where it's just Cecil calling a bunch of people really appeals to me to shake things up a bit. I am worried for Cecil and Carlos, though. I also desperately want to know what's going on with Chad and the evil puppy he's summoned. I am extremely proud of myself for being suspicious of the overly cute puppy in the first place. Likewise, I'm really enjoying where the new podcast, Alice Isn't Dead, is going.

Just writing these two paragraphs helped boost my mood. I'm still kind of bummed about not being able to finish my assignment for [community profile] space_swap. I'm trying not to feel too horrible about it because I have two other assignments that I need to finish. The idea I was working on just got away from me, and I wasn't sure I could do it justice in the remaining time. I have almost a thousand words written now, so I intend to turn it into something eventually.
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No, I never saw the movie that I'm quoting right now, but perhaps I should.

As the previous post indicates, I finished [community profile] snowflake_challenge. The only problem is that I forgot to post about it over there, so I should probably do that today. By some miracle, I was able to fulfill my assignment for [community profile] chocolateboxcomm and write a treat as well. Both of my works exceed the 300 word minimum, and I'm desperately hoping that they don't suck. I did not go looking for a beta for either, but I proofread them as best I could. Now, it won't be much longer before they are revealed anonymously. I wrote for one fandom that I've written for before and one that I never wrote for because it always intimidated me. That could apply to almost anything because of how little I've written so far. I would very much like to write another treat, but we'll see how time goes as I have many more important things to do in my real life.

AO3 says that I have two gifts waiting for me. :D I guess that I must have picked fandoms that were easy to write for because I had my main gift and another treat uploaded before the treat list went up. I'm guessing that they're either Harry Potter, Chronicles of Narnia, Doctor Who, or Fullmetal Alchemist. Unfortunately, no one except me offered or requested Welcome to Night Vale. Regardless, I'm still very excited because I've never participated in an exchange before. It's just so brilliant to have one like this around Valentine's Day. Even if I don't have some great love of my own to look forward to, I can share a little love with my fellow fans through my writing.
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Ugh, I just love waking up from a romantic and loving dream to an unromantic reality. :( It's kind of perfect that "Someone Like You" by Adele is playing while I type this. Even though it has been overplayed and is nowhere near new to me, I still love this song to bits. This song would be an excellent basis for a fic, but I'm sure someone has already done that. Maybe I could try writing something with Cecil/Earl Harlan. I do love unrequited love and pining, so this would fit them perfectly.

...And this is why I need to write fics more often!

Anyway, I believe I was engaged in my dream. This makes perfect sense because a slew of my childhood acquaintances and friends have gotten married lately. My family has been talking about the upcoming wedding of one of them in January, and I've been trying to not cry whenever it has been spoken about. Fortunately, my family is not one to bother me about getting married or having grandkids (spoiler: there will be no grandkids!), but that doesn't change how left behind I feel. It seems that it's always like this, and the winter holidays don't make anything better. I realize that a good portion of my reason for being alone is my own fault, but that doesn't change how disheartening it is, especially when the only solution is to put myself through painful situations to make my life better.

For this reason, I don't regret giving my gift to favorite guy. I hope it wasn't too silly or inappropriate, but even if it was, I feel like I have a good reason for giving it to him.

Anyway, I now return you to your regularly scheduled Christmas Eve.

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