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Ugh, I just love waking up from a romantic and loving dream to an unromantic reality. :( It's kind of perfect that "Someone Like You" by Adele is playing while I type this. Even though it has been overplayed and is nowhere near new to me, I still love this song to bits. This song would be an excellent basis for a fic, but I'm sure someone has already done that. Maybe I could try writing something with Cecil/Earl Harlan. I do love unrequited love and pining, so this would fit them perfectly.
...And this is why I need to write fics more often!
Anyway, I believe I was engaged in my dream. This makes perfect sense because a slew of my childhood acquaintances and friends have gotten married lately. My family has been talking about the upcoming wedding of one of them in January, and I've been trying to not cry whenever it has been spoken about. Fortunately, my family is not one to bother me about getting married or having grandkids (spoiler: there will be no grandkids!), but that doesn't change how left behind I feel. It seems that it's always like this, and the winter holidays don't make anything better. I realize that a good portion of my reason for being alone is my own fault, but that doesn't change how disheartening it is, especially when the only solution is to put myself through painful situations to make my life better.
For this reason, I don't regret giving my gift to favorite guy. I hope it wasn't too silly or inappropriate, but even if it was, I feel like I have a good reason for giving it to him.
Anyway, I now return you to your regularly scheduled Christmas Eve.
...And this is why I need to write fics more often!
Anyway, I believe I was engaged in my dream. This makes perfect sense because a slew of my childhood acquaintances and friends have gotten married lately. My family has been talking about the upcoming wedding of one of them in January, and I've been trying to not cry whenever it has been spoken about. Fortunately, my family is not one to bother me about getting married or having grandkids (spoiler: there will be no grandkids!), but that doesn't change how left behind I feel. It seems that it's always like this, and the winter holidays don't make anything better. I realize that a good portion of my reason for being alone is my own fault, but that doesn't change how disheartening it is, especially when the only solution is to put myself through painful situations to make my life better.
For this reason, I don't regret giving my gift to favorite guy. I hope it wasn't too silly or inappropriate, but even if it was, I feel like I have a good reason for giving it to him.
Anyway, I now return you to your regularly scheduled Christmas Eve.
